Soulmates, Perfection and Eyes....

So i have read a few of these back and i guess i should really clear a few points up.. like what makes a soulmate, and why oh why it is now so important to me since the break up from hell.



i guess i should stat with the ex boyfriend...for arguments sake i'll call him Rob. I know that all of you will know the feelings that you first get when you into a new relationship. everyone but everyone has fallen in love at one point or another... and i DID have those feelings for a large part of my relationship with Rob. But it didnt start like that. To begin with, i wasnt into him at all! i remember that he did the chasing... and try as i might not to get feelngs for him, inevitably it happened. All of the feelings that every new relationship gets... i couldnt get him out of my head, the joys of a new relationship took me. Suddenly life is just so perfect....



... but as i mentioned in previous posts, it doesnt always turn out to be perfect. i have since spoken to a few of my friends about the idea of soulmates... and most don't believe in them. Each to their own opinion i guess. But there was one idea that stuck in my head (and almost made me back down on my own beliefs):-

"Love is seeing an imperfect person perfectly"

This thought had played on my mind and then suddenly, it dawned on me (and this is the reason that i won't back down on my Soulmates ideas).. That was exactly what i had done with Rob - learnt to see him perfectly...

... it wasnt natural, it was forced, and then when the relationship had begun to take its turn for the worse, all of these imperfections begin to make their appearances again. The darkness was taking me, from my failing relationship... and that was when i discovered that Soulmates are real and they must exist somewhere.

There is a perfect person for everyone somewhere... someone that shares the same ideals as you....don't get me wrong, EVERYONE wil argue.. and everyone will have their flaws... but those arent imperfections, because in your eyes, you see that as part of what makes them perfect to you! and THAT is what makes them your soulmate... you know that you can tell them anything, and they will never mock you, you can trust that for every second that you arent with them, they have only you on their minds... that you are the last thing on their minds before they sleep and the first when they wake up... and not just in the beginnning - ALL THE WAY THROUGH!
Listen to the song that i posted in my last post, and you will get a better idea.....

And now for the latest turn of events, where Jack is concerned...

.... Last night, my friend and i decided to chill at my house with a bottle or two of wine, and inevitably, the conversation was soon steered to Jack (She is the only other person that i have allowed to read my blogs). We had decided to see whether or not Jack was online, and right on cue, he appeared... and so the conversation started... to begin with, it was mega difficult.... on one hand i find it sooo easy to talk to Jack but then i had my friend whispering advice on how to flirt in the other ear!!!

Apparently, i'm terrible at flirting, however i did manage to ignore MOST of her advice.. i needed to do this my way... Anyway, soon, the conversation progressed and the 3 of us sat and spoke to each other, but now with added webcam... This was the first time that i had seen and spoken to Jack whilst i was sober. In time, my friend got too tired and fell asleep, and then i had him to myself...

... I could talk about things that i couldnt have said whilst my friend was awake... i could gently flirt without being embarressed...

He has the most beautiful eyes that i have ever seen but he shouldnt trust them as he does... Whilst the rest of his body can tell me one thing, his eyes tell a different story. They betray how he feels....