"On est aisement dupe par ce qu' on aime"

A little off track today...

Whilst at work someone mentioned (as it quite often DOES) the subject of being gay. Now, for the heterosexuals, or teenage girls, this subject is, no doubt, both captivating and enthralling… after all, it isn’t every day that you have the opportunity to speak to a ‘real-life’ gay!!!

Now, when I first came out, at the age of 17, the opportunity to speak about it was usually grabbed at. When you have sat on a secret for so long, you can’t wait to actually get a sound reason to speak about it. But nearly 7 years on, and when the conversation is broached, the novelty of it has worn off a little. I begin to start having dark thoughts, and sarcasm suddenly becomes my second nature.

For example, I don’t sit and ask heterosexual men or women HALF of the questions that are usually presented to me. Everything, from what goes on in my love life, to what happens in the bedroom. Most of the time I feel like some sort of caged animal at the zoo, that everyone needs a good poke around with.

However, today, what REALLY made my blood boil was that someone that I actually trusted stated that being gay wasn’t ‘natural’. I COMPLETELY disagree – talk about a kick to the head!! Who is anyone to tell me that the way I am is un-natural. As I tried to explain to her (although it fell on completely deaf, ignorant ears) was that being gay is not a choice – I didn’t suddenly wake up one morning and think to myself “hmmm, do you know what, I think I am going to try boys today” – it just doesn’t work like that.

A heterosexual person never wakes up and makes the decision to be straight, no more than a gay person does. So for those that think it un-natural, I say NO. You’re wrong. Nature CHOSE ME to be this way…

Anyway, back on subject – now I have THAT off my chest – back to the matter in hand!! So far, Technology has taken a blow! Gay men’s personals’ sites have a LOT to answer for... however, i have begun to look into the other branches that it has to offer!

Whilst i lay in bed last night, i realise that my phone is inundated with phone numbers from random people that ive met whilst being out and about... and SURELY i only gave them my number if i liked them???

I have now sent maybe 10 different people a text message this morning (deviously) to ask how they are!!! I’ll keep you updated with the responces i get!!!