Apologies for the lack of voice though!!!!
www.youtube.com/benjconfessions
Benj x
Tuesday, 27 October 2009
Hair, Teeth and the flu virus....
..... is also just to make its debut on Youtube!
Apologies for the lack of voice though!!!!
www.youtube.com/benjconfessions
Apologies for the lack of voice though!!!!
www.youtube.com/benjconfessions
PROPOSITION!!!!
OK SO THIS ONE CALLS FOR A RED FONT!!!
Basically.... and this is when I REALLY need your support.... can anyone (follower or not) that reads the posts' send me an email to;
adeebenben@gmail.com
You dont have to say anything, or leave your real name or details or anything.... I can't really explain right at this moment, but all will become VERY clear!!!
Thanks guys,
Benj x
Basically.... and this is when I REALLY need your support.... can anyone (follower or not) that reads the posts' send me an email to;
adeebenben@gmail.com
You dont have to say anything, or leave your real name or details or anything.... I can't really explain right at this moment, but all will become VERY clear!!!
Thanks guys,
Benj x
Thursday, 22 October 2009
It's a new dawn, it's a new day,it's a new life, for me...
..... And i'm feeling good!
Hey all! I know that I have been a bit lazy on the whole Blog/Vlog front, but today I am going to explain why! Before I do though, the next Vlog HAS been filmed and will most likely go onto Youtube on Sunday (just need to edit a few things!! - www.youtube.com/benjconfessions )
OK.... so remember from the last post, I filled you all in on the events of the night that I met the beautiful barman?? Well things have progressed, somewhat significantly!
We had arranged to have a "date" on the Friday post me meeting him... The dilemma that I had faced in regards to that was that I had let my mouth get carried away with me, and in the style of the true romantic that I am, had offered to cook! Well.... I CAN actually cook, but in the past it had always been for people that i felt comfortable around. But this time, I actually had to think on my feet - after all, I wanted this to be both romantic and impressive, but at the same time as though I had just thrown it together? I didnt want to look desperate!!!
So that week I went to work and sent out masses and masses of emails to my colleagues to ask for advice. What are you supposed to cook for someone that you dont know??? Well, true to form, my mates pulled together, and suddenly my inbox at work was full of suggestions! - By the way, when I said I can cook, what I actually mean to say is that I'm no Gordan Ramsey.... Sure, I know Herbs from weeds, but it most certainly wasn't going to be resaturant standard!
These ideas ranged from Gourmet through to slap up... and I had ABSOLUTELY NO IDEA which was best!!! There is one lady at work though (a bit of an angel) who had suggested that I buy the ingredients, bring them into work, and she would cook them for me..... then on the night, I only had to throw them into the oven and... Hey Presto! Meal for two... giving me time to worry about which side my hair was parted on and whether or not the flat was giving off the right ambience!!!!
As these things generally do however, when i am concerned, of course SOMETHING had to go wrong... In the few days to the lead up to the date, i was called out of the office and didn't have chance to give my freshly bought ingredients' to my guardian angel at work... so come the Night before, I had to think on my feet!
I scoured Google for the easiest, most romantic meal I could find! YUP.... Lasagne to the rescue.. I could prepare it all the night before and then just bung it in the oven upon his arrival! Perfect! So, I set to work on this masterpiece of a dish.... At the time, I remember thinking that I really hoped that it tasted much better than it looked, given that raw, it looked as though it had been run over by a fast moving vehicle!!! Too late, however, I had run out of time... The lasagne disaster had to do....
On the night of the date Mr. Barman turned up and the lasagne was whipped into the oven (before he had chance to look at it) - A trick that I have now learnt is that when making lasagne, cover it in a THICK layer of cheese, because when that bad boy goes into the heat, it all melts and hides all of the imperfections!!! See, told you i was sly!
Anyway, to cut a long story short... the meal was a success; We washed it down with liberal amounts of wine (which also helped to calm the nerves!!) and continued the night with lots and lots of chat!
The strange thing is though, i never once felt uncomfortable in his company... Like, and I know that this sounds wierd, as though we had known each other for ages?? I know it sounds strange, but the whole night was just really..... nice?
Well, turns out that we have hit it off! We get on really well, and honestly, I DO hope that this could be the start of something....
Something that I want to make clear though, is that I will NOT be taking him to the Christmas party. See the thing is... I like him FAR too much, and in hindsight, I dont want to ever think of him as though he was ever part of a 'game' to find a date... because simply, it wasnt like that. When I met him, I wasnt looking for anything or anyone.. just by chance that he found an interest in me I guess? And so, I think that it is definitely true when people say that you never find someone if you are looking for them!
Anyway, we have seen a lot of each other this week and it makes me like <-------------------------THIS---------------------------------> happy :) - yes, happy enough to throw in the occassional emoticon!!!
I'll keep you all posted on how things pan out with him (but keep your fingers crossed for me eh, because I REALLY like him!).... and so now, I need a new direction to move the Blogs and Vlogs in.... Those that paid attention at the beginning of this post though, already know that I have filmed Vlog number 4.... so On Sunday, you will be able to find out exactly WHICH direction we're headed in!!!
Keep reading/watching!
Hey all! I know that I have been a bit lazy on the whole Blog/Vlog front, but today I am going to explain why! Before I do though, the next Vlog HAS been filmed and will most likely go onto Youtube on Sunday (just need to edit a few things!! - www.youtube.com/benjconfessions )
OK.... so remember from the last post, I filled you all in on the events of the night that I met the beautiful barman?? Well things have progressed, somewhat significantly!
We had arranged to have a "date" on the Friday post me meeting him... The dilemma that I had faced in regards to that was that I had let my mouth get carried away with me, and in the style of the true romantic that I am, had offered to cook! Well.... I CAN actually cook, but in the past it had always been for people that i felt comfortable around. But this time, I actually had to think on my feet - after all, I wanted this to be both romantic and impressive, but at the same time as though I had just thrown it together? I didnt want to look desperate!!!
So that week I went to work and sent out masses and masses of emails to my colleagues to ask for advice. What are you supposed to cook for someone that you dont know??? Well, true to form, my mates pulled together, and suddenly my inbox at work was full of suggestions! - By the way, when I said I can cook, what I actually mean to say is that I'm no Gordan Ramsey.... Sure, I know Herbs from weeds, but it most certainly wasn't going to be resaturant standard!
These ideas ranged from Gourmet through to slap up... and I had ABSOLUTELY NO IDEA which was best!!! There is one lady at work though (a bit of an angel) who had suggested that I buy the ingredients, bring them into work, and she would cook them for me..... then on the night, I only had to throw them into the oven and... Hey Presto! Meal for two... giving me time to worry about which side my hair was parted on and whether or not the flat was giving off the right ambience!!!!
As these things generally do however, when i am concerned, of course SOMETHING had to go wrong... In the few days to the lead up to the date, i was called out of the office and didn't have chance to give my freshly bought ingredients' to my guardian angel at work... so come the Night before, I had to think on my feet!
I scoured Google for the easiest, most romantic meal I could find! YUP.... Lasagne to the rescue.. I could prepare it all the night before and then just bung it in the oven upon his arrival! Perfect! So, I set to work on this masterpiece of a dish.... At the time, I remember thinking that I really hoped that it tasted much better than it looked, given that raw, it looked as though it had been run over by a fast moving vehicle!!! Too late, however, I had run out of time... The lasagne disaster had to do....
On the night of the date Mr. Barman turned up and the lasagne was whipped into the oven (before he had chance to look at it) - A trick that I have now learnt is that when making lasagne, cover it in a THICK layer of cheese, because when that bad boy goes into the heat, it all melts and hides all of the imperfections!!! See, told you i was sly!
Anyway, to cut a long story short... the meal was a success; We washed it down with liberal amounts of wine (which also helped to calm the nerves!!) and continued the night with lots and lots of chat!
The strange thing is though, i never once felt uncomfortable in his company... Like, and I know that this sounds wierd, as though we had known each other for ages?? I know it sounds strange, but the whole night was just really..... nice?
Well, turns out that we have hit it off! We get on really well, and honestly, I DO hope that this could be the start of something....
Something that I want to make clear though, is that I will NOT be taking him to the Christmas party. See the thing is... I like him FAR too much, and in hindsight, I dont want to ever think of him as though he was ever part of a 'game' to find a date... because simply, it wasnt like that. When I met him, I wasnt looking for anything or anyone.. just by chance that he found an interest in me I guess? And so, I think that it is definitely true when people say that you never find someone if you are looking for them!
Anyway, we have seen a lot of each other this week and it makes me like <-------------------------THIS---------------------------------> happy :) - yes, happy enough to throw in the occassional emoticon!!!
I'll keep you all posted on how things pan out with him (but keep your fingers crossed for me eh, because I REALLY like him!).... and so now, I need a new direction to move the Blogs and Vlogs in.... Those that paid attention at the beginning of this post though, already know that I have filmed Vlog number 4.... so On Sunday, you will be able to find out exactly WHICH direction we're headed in!!!
Keep reading/watching!
Benj x
Tuesday, 13 October 2009
From Vlog to Blog...
OK... as promised here are the text versions of the videos!
Firstly, it seems many many moons ago now, but remember when i sent out those texts? Well, SOMEONE - yes, just ONE of the people replied! i had basically sent out like a generic messgaeto him to ask how he was ect etc (deceitful yes, effective, quite!)
He replied with the usual, im fine, how are you.... although at that precise moment (thank you God) my credit ran out and i was unable to reply... So in a mad dash to rescue my love life, i went to the shops and bought more... Although, God is not easily thwarted and although i replied to him and made idle chit chat, nothing has been heard since!! TYPICAL! By now, i should really have learnt that nothing is going to be easy!
So... on the ole Scoreboard, Technology to find a date is a resounding NO.
Moving on....I also posted my view on why i think that Romance is well and truly DEAD - to mixed views!!! Firstly, my reasoning is that i don't think that when you are out in a club and you see someone that you think is attractive... 9 times out of 10, they dont have thoughts of mad romance running through their heads... More like Carnal Animal Instinct of what your clothes would look like on their bedroom floor! Like i have said before, i like sex.. but THAT isn't romance!
Secondly... In the current era, of hoodies and chavs and drugs and violence - todays generation isnt interested in the finer things in life... Take me for example, Id rather be taken out to the theatre for a spot of Shakespeare before having candlelit dinner, as opposed to sitting on a street corner with my hood pulled so far over my face that i intimdate old ladies! Third... and by NO means last... Romance is NOT considered to be cool. Take the 1960's, with open air drive in cinemas and high school "ballroom style" dances..... now THAT was rife with romance.... nowadays though.... no such luck!
In video blog number 3 ( I mainly spoke about nothing important!) I also mentioned that i had an up and coming date on Sunday just gone....
... before i get that far though, i should fill you in on the events of the night before. Saturday night. I had met up with my friend and we had decidedly gone out to 'paint the town red'. The drinks flowed quite rapidly.... and before long i could feel the effects... Alcohol does one of two things to me... i either go into my shell completely (its actually a depressant dont you know?)OR.... i get over confident... you know, dance around like im Britney Spears and talk to anyone and EVERYONE!
Well, the barman in this particular club was decidedly beautiful. I had hankered around at the bar waiting to be served, and somewhat slyly tried to grab his gaze so that he would serve me. Obviously though, i'm not very good at that, and someone else served me instead... i gave her my order whilst she said "Could you tear your eyes off my colleague and actually look at ME when you talk to me?!". Told you i was sly. So anyway, i blushed a deeper shade of scarlet got my drink and made for the coolness of outside...
...A few minutes passed and next thing i know, i turn around and the Barman was stood behind me. Turns out, that he had asked the girl that served me what i was drinking (it was anything with a percentage) and hehad bought me out a drink!!! I was stunned, for lack of a better term, and if any of you remember when i first met Jack, it will come as no surprise to you that i just kinda stood there and beamed at him!
***Sidenote.... i really need to work on being cool!***
Anyway, i finally found my balls again and went to speak to him... DONT ask me what i said because honestly i dont remember... but i do remember that we spent ALL night talking to each other after that!!! and then all day via text and Facebook right the way up until today!!! WOOOOOP
Oh yeah.... the date that i had with 'whatshisname' on Sunday wasnt a roaring success either.... another knock for Technology there!!! - it was somewhat mediocre and to be honest, i couldnt wait for him to leave! HOWEVER!!!! all is most definitely NOT lost.... once again, i wont name names, BUT... the guy that i met on Saturday night is meeting up with me again on Friday! GOOD TIMES! Although if you think that life is going well again, take a step back. Remember who's Blog you are reading... and then wonder to yourself if it is all going as smoothly as one would like!
Later on tonight, i will be making Vlog 4 and you can watch the dilemma that i now face there!!! WATCH THIS SPACE!
Firstly, it seems many many moons ago now, but remember when i sent out those texts? Well, SOMEONE - yes, just ONE of the people replied! i had basically sent out like a generic messgaeto him to ask how he was ect etc (deceitful yes, effective, quite!)
He replied with the usual, im fine, how are you.... although at that precise moment (thank you God) my credit ran out and i was unable to reply... So in a mad dash to rescue my love life, i went to the shops and bought more... Although, God is not easily thwarted and although i replied to him and made idle chit chat, nothing has been heard since!! TYPICAL! By now, i should really have learnt that nothing is going to be easy!
So... on the ole Scoreboard, Technology to find a date is a resounding NO.
Moving on....I also posted my view on why i think that Romance is well and truly DEAD - to mixed views!!! Firstly, my reasoning is that i don't think that when you are out in a club and you see someone that you think is attractive... 9 times out of 10, they dont have thoughts of mad romance running through their heads... More like Carnal Animal Instinct of what your clothes would look like on their bedroom floor! Like i have said before, i like sex.. but THAT isn't romance!
Secondly... In the current era, of hoodies and chavs and drugs and violence - todays generation isnt interested in the finer things in life... Take me for example, Id rather be taken out to the theatre for a spot of Shakespeare before having candlelit dinner, as opposed to sitting on a street corner with my hood pulled so far over my face that i intimdate old ladies! Third... and by NO means last... Romance is NOT considered to be cool. Take the 1960's, with open air drive in cinemas and high school "ballroom style" dances..... now THAT was rife with romance.... nowadays though.... no such luck!
In video blog number 3 ( I mainly spoke about nothing important!) I also mentioned that i had an up and coming date on Sunday just gone....
... before i get that far though, i should fill you in on the events of the night before. Saturday night. I had met up with my friend and we had decidedly gone out to 'paint the town red'. The drinks flowed quite rapidly.... and before long i could feel the effects... Alcohol does one of two things to me... i either go into my shell completely (its actually a depressant dont you know?)OR.... i get over confident... you know, dance around like im Britney Spears and talk to anyone and EVERYONE!
Well, the barman in this particular club was decidedly beautiful. I had hankered around at the bar waiting to be served, and somewhat slyly tried to grab his gaze so that he would serve me. Obviously though, i'm not very good at that, and someone else served me instead... i gave her my order whilst she said "Could you tear your eyes off my colleague and actually look at ME when you talk to me?!". Told you i was sly. So anyway, i blushed a deeper shade of scarlet got my drink and made for the coolness of outside...
...A few minutes passed and next thing i know, i turn around and the Barman was stood behind me. Turns out, that he had asked the girl that served me what i was drinking (it was anything with a percentage) and hehad bought me out a drink!!! I was stunned, for lack of a better term, and if any of you remember when i first met Jack, it will come as no surprise to you that i just kinda stood there and beamed at him!
***Sidenote.... i really need to work on being cool!***
Anyway, i finally found my balls again and went to speak to him... DONT ask me what i said because honestly i dont remember... but i do remember that we spent ALL night talking to each other after that!!! and then all day via text and Facebook right the way up until today!!! WOOOOOP
Oh yeah.... the date that i had with 'whatshisname' on Sunday wasnt a roaring success either.... another knock for Technology there!!! - it was somewhat mediocre and to be honest, i couldnt wait for him to leave! HOWEVER!!!! all is most definitely NOT lost.... once again, i wont name names, BUT... the guy that i met on Saturday night is meeting up with me again on Friday! GOOD TIMES! Although if you think that life is going well again, take a step back. Remember who's Blog you are reading... and then wonder to yourself if it is all going as smoothly as one would like!
Later on tonight, i will be making Vlog 4 and you can watch the dilemma that i now face there!!! WATCH THIS SPACE!
Benj x
Thursday, 8 October 2009
Vlog 3..... possibly a turn for the worse!
OK Video Blog 3 has just gone up.... please head on over to youtube.com/benjconfessions!
i have been sooooo busy at the moment, i havent had time to update the blogs, however, as God is my witness all 3 updates will go on here tomorrow!!
Goodnight, all.
Benj x
i have been sooooo busy at the moment, i havent had time to update the blogs, however, as God is my witness all 3 updates will go on here tomorrow!!
Goodnight, all.
Benj x
Tuesday, 6 October 2009
This is getting easier!
Hi guys.... Just a quick update to let you know that "Vlog 2" is about to make its debut onto Youtube!!!
As promised in the video, i will be posting the text version on here later on!
As promised in the video, i will be posting the text version on here later on!
Love, as always, Benj x
Monday, 5 October 2009
Lights, Camera, Jack-tion!
ok... I've got sooo much to say and i have absolutely NO idea where to start..... OK, well first, i have started to Vlog - yes, VLOG, -some stuff too.. go over to www.youtube.com/benjconfessions and subscribe there? or if not, then let m know what you think anyway.... by the way, Vlogging is NOT easy to do AT ALL!!!! Still, i'll give it a bash and see what happens....
Anyway, back to the matter in hand... if any of you DO watch the Vlog, then you'll notice that I mentioned that I got a reply to one of the text messages that i sent out a few weeks ago!!! I had originally text him and asked how he was (i thought it best not to jump straight on in with "Will you go on a date with me?!") and after a few days (took his time!!) he replied and asked me how i was, but TYPICALLY i have ran out of credit only phone! BAD TIMES!! although i should have known that it wasn't going to run smoothly shouldn't i?!
so the plan is that i will put some cash on the phone and reply... i'm soooo out of practise with this flirting business though, so any ideas will be very much appreciated!!
Also, this weekend, my other news is that at the weekend, i had stayed with Jack (SHOCK HORROR) - now if you remember, i had made a promise to myself to let all of the feelings that were in any way romantic go...
And my Verdict????
He really is as charming and sweet as was first imagined, and yes we DID get on very well... but you can still tell when something is dead in the water... i mean, although we DID get on REALLY well (or a least i THINK we did) there is no point in going after something that will never happen, is there? Like i say though, I thought we got on really really well, so i would be nice to see him in the future, even if only on this friends only basis.... i hope his other half knows how very lucky he is!! - anyway, I've got a great new mate out of it, and I'm pleased with that... if anything DOES materialise then i will be sure to let you know, but I wouldn't hold your breath!!!
More to come tomorrow.... these new ideas that are crashing around in my head just need a little finalising!
Anyway, back to the matter in hand... if any of you DO watch the Vlog, then you'll notice that I mentioned that I got a reply to one of the text messages that i sent out a few weeks ago!!! I had originally text him and asked how he was (i thought it best not to jump straight on in with "Will you go on a date with me?!") and after a few days (took his time!!) he replied and asked me how i was, but TYPICALLY i have ran out of credit only phone! BAD TIMES!! although i should have known that it wasn't going to run smoothly shouldn't i?!
so the plan is that i will put some cash on the phone and reply... i'm soooo out of practise with this flirting business though, so any ideas will be very much appreciated!!
Also, this weekend, my other news is that at the weekend, i had stayed with Jack (SHOCK HORROR) - now if you remember, i had made a promise to myself to let all of the feelings that were in any way romantic go...
And my Verdict????
He really is as charming and sweet as was first imagined, and yes we DID get on very well... but you can still tell when something is dead in the water... i mean, although we DID get on REALLY well (or a least i THINK we did) there is no point in going after something that will never happen, is there? Like i say though, I thought we got on really really well, so i would be nice to see him in the future, even if only on this friends only basis.... i hope his other half knows how very lucky he is!! - anyway, I've got a great new mate out of it, and I'm pleased with that... if anything DOES materialise then i will be sure to let you know, but I wouldn't hold your breath!!!
More to come tomorrow.... these new ideas that are crashing around in my head just need a little finalising!
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